Monday Musings: "Brain Fog"
If you know me you have heard me talk about having "brain fog", this is something that happens to me more often than I would like. It prevents me from thinking clearly, it prevents me from articulating myself in any sort of sophisticated manner. One day I was playing board games with my family and I had to halt our game because of bad brain fog. I don't know why but this event in particular really bothered me, so I wrote a poem about it. Below is my poem aptly titled "Brain Fog". I also painted a picture and added the poem on a piece of velum to signify the fogginess with a double layer of velum on the last lines of the poem to amplify that effect. I used shades of blue to signify the despair I feel when I am experiencing it. I will add that below as well.
Brain Fog
By: Heather Danielle Ashley
A thick layer envelops me
a mist that only I can see.
To me inside, I know the way out
but you can't hear me even if I shout.
You can see me perfectly clear
but it is so dimly lit over here.
Bear with me as I find my ground
I am not lost but am nowhere to be found.
I hate this thick shroud that swallows my wits
I have all the pieces, but none this puzzle fits.
I want to brutally punch my way past this wall
I am swallowed whole, to this giant I am so small.
I feel so numb, my mind is stuck on pause
everything I do becomes a lost cause.
I experience reality through a novocaine coating,
my thoughts are left so cruelly floating.
I know what to say, yet I forget how to speak aloud
I know exactly what I'm talking about being
this wit dimming
thought numbing
cloud.